Happy 3 Month Birthday Malachi!

You are 3 months old today - wow time goes quickly. It is so hard knowing that you have spent your entire life in a time of "transition" but soon you will be forever home. We are still hopeful that 3 weeks from today we will be on the airplane to pick you up and in 3 weeks 2 days you will be in my arms! I really hope we get some confirmed travel dates next week.

I know you have no idea how radically your life is about to change. I am sure you are content and happy with where you are right now, but an orphanage is no place for a child to spend their life and you have been chosen! As of last week you have a new last name and a family who is longing for your arrival! By now you probably even have the most adorable little passport photo and a new pretty birth certificate :)

Last night I was finally able to cut the tags off all your clothes and wash them. I have really struggled with letting myself get my hopes up that you will actually be coming home but now that you are officially and legally our son - I can let my guard down. Can I just say - for a boy - you sure do have a lot of clothes! I am sorry because you are probably going to hate it but I am going to HAVE to play dress up with you because you just have too many adorable things to wear :)

I hate that you have no clue who we are or that you are going to be spending a lot ..... or the majority of the next 18+ years with us. We have had a year to adjust and plan for your arrival into our family and you haven't. You have no idea that you aren't "home" yet. So I promise I will try not to take it personally if you cry and hate me at first.

When I put myself in your shoes I just can't imagine how weird and different our life will be from what you are used to. I am sure America smells very different than Ethiopia does. I am sure the way I will hold you and cuddle you will look and sound different than what you are used to. I am sure our one child home with dogs that bark will be very different sounding than your current home with lots of children. Just know we are in this together and it is going to be a new experience for all involved - we will probably laugh together and cry together as we adjust to the new normal as a family of 3.

It is very hard to wait for this life changing event to occur. I wish you were home right now. But looking at your sweet face everyday through pictures and seeing your adorable grin is enough to get me through another few days without you sweet boy!





We love you Malachi and can't wait for you to be home with us!